According to Demi Lovato, there is nothing wrong with being a little complicated. Her 78 minute documentary titled Simply Complicated premiered on YouTube Tuesday. In the documentary, Demi discusses her road to recovery. The clip was directed by Hannah Lux Davis and it was filmed over the course of seven months in early 2017. Here are seven things we took away from the video:
Lovato tried cocaine for the first time at age 17
Demi was bullied for many years and was eventually pressured by a popular student into partying. Demi started drinking and smoking marijuana but she first tried cocaine around the time she was working for the Disney Channel. Demi explains that addiction, unfortunately, runs in her family:
“My dad was an addict and an alcoholic. I guess I always searched for what he found in drugs and alcohol because it fulfilled him and he chose that over a family.”
The Jonas Brothers tried to stage an intervention
Demi’s manager John Taylor remembers that it was the Jonas Brothers that saw that Demi was veering in the wrong direction. Demi punched a backup dancer on a plane back in 2010 after the dancer had tattled on her for throwing a wild hotel party. Shortly after the incident, Demi entered rehab. Until that point, Nick Jonas thought he had helped Lovato take control of her life. At that point Joe Jonas and Demi were still dating but things were incredibly complicated between the two. Nick explains in the documentary that:
“had become really complicated. I was playing the bridge…It became really good between she and I for a while, growing closer than we’ve ever been. I remember thinking in my head I felt a bit of pride about it, like selfishly maybe I was helping her [get] back to being the Demi we know and love. ‘She’s not going to do anything crazy. She’ll be fine. And then the episode [involving the backup dancer] happened.”
Rehab didn’t work the first time
After her first stint of rehab in 2010, Demi went on a bender when she was “using daily.” She says that she left rehab after 12 months with a glow that faded fast. She explains that at the time she wasn’t ready to be sober. Her manager at the time recalls that Demi did interviews about her sobriety while she was high. She had gone through about 20 sober companions during that time.
She spent time in a psych ward
While in Palm Springs, Demi’s specialist says the singer had to be hospitalized after locking herself in her bedroom and swallowing pills. Demi was admitted to the hospital’s psychiatric ward, but refused to get clean. She admits to using drugs in secret. Mike Bayer, Demi’s personal-development coach, says he noticed a shift in Demi after her management team threatened to fire her if she didn’t get sober. Taking her specialist’s advice, she turned over her cell phone to cut off access to drug dealers.
She still loves her ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama
Wilmer was Demi’s first true-love:
“I met him on Jan. 11, 2010. I thought, ‘I have to have him,’ but I was only 17 and he was like, ‘Get away from me. “When I turned 18 we started dating. I think it was love at first sight. We connected on a level that I’ve never connected with anybody before. He was just my rock, my everything. I’ve never loved anybody like I loved Wilmer and I still love him.”
But, after nearly six years together, the couple announced they had broken up in June 2016:
“The sparks never faded, but there are issues that I haven’t conquered yet that I know I won’t conquer if I’m relying on somebody else to take care of the loneliness. I just wasn’t ready and there was so much in my life that I hadn’t explored yet…That was one of the reasons why we broke up, because I’ve never been alone. It had nothing to do with falling out of love. We decided together that we just probably are better as friends.”
She admits that at times she has regrets.
She doesn’t identify as straight
Demi tells stylist Avo Yermagyan she has been using the invite-only dating app Raya. She says that she’s on a dating app with both men and women. She says she doesn’t have a type but she is attracted to athletes. Demi says she isn’t afraid to embrace her sensual side either.
She is still battling an eating disorder
Demi confesses that when she was with Wilmer she went three years without ‘purging’ but she also says that after they broke up, it was the first thing she did. The bingeing began at age 8, after Madison de la Garza was born:
“A lot of the attention was taken off me and onto my little sister. I had started working at that time and was under a lot of stress, so I would bake cookies for my family. I would eat all of them and nobody would have any to eat. That was my first memory of food being that medicine for me.”
She admits that it is a constant battle for her.